What does it mean when you’re unbelievably happy and yet entirely miserable at the same time? How is this possible? My body is giving out on me. I can’t stop getting sick. I can’t get enough sleep or make it through the day without being exhausted. My ankle hurts. Like way more than a couple […]
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The Dark Hole
I’m lying on the floor of the yoga studio. The endorphins pulse through me and I feel a sweet sense of calm that I haven’t felt in weeks. I glance up toward the window and see a patch of bright blue sky, completely unadulterated by clouds. “See?” I tell myself, “This is what happens when […]
You can only be as okay as you actually are.
I spent a lot of time chastising myself for feeling the wrong way. “This is ridiculous, you’re overreacting.” “You said, it was okay, so you really have no reason to be upset.” “You’re not getting anything done feeling this way, grow up and act like a fucking adult.” The voices in my head are not […]
Writer’s block
I’m feeling very stuck. Usually when I’m sad, or down, I’ve been able to put pen to paper, so to speak, and write my feelings away. Every time I sit down to write, though, I seem to draw up a blank. Or I write pages and pages of nonsense that won’t serve anyone to read. […]
